WHY? Does any of this really matter?
This has been a horrible month! I can't wait for it to end. This may not be an appropriate forum for this so I apologize in advance.
Early in October, my best friend was disagnosed with breast cancer. Why? She has always been healthy. She's the 3rd generation to have the disease! Last week she had both breasts removed and hopes with some chemotherapy she will live cancer free. I pray for her health - and my own, since none of us knows what tomorrow will bring.
On Oct. 6, my parents (87 and 85) celebrated their 55th wedding anniversary. Following that milestone, my father's health has continued to decline to the point where they can no longer stay at home without help. He called me wanting to go to the hospital so he could rest and "feel better". After his plea, I began the search to find an assisted living facility for them-- selling our family home, if necessary -- so that they would be safe and still be together. I'm afraid that they will hurt themselves while we begin our search for reliable help or a safe place. I'm still doing my research on possible facilities - it's just a matter of days before he won't be able to stay at home. Why me?
On Sunday, October 22, a 51 year old friend at church who never smoked died of lung cancer. She first became aware of the cancer in April and now she is gone. She worked at our church in Children's Ministry. She loved God, her family and all the children of the church. She was the mother hen who protected all those who couldn't take care of themselves. She leaves 2 daughters, a husband and all her friends asking - WHY?
So needless to say, my priorities and concerns have been on things besides this class and my project. In the big picture, does any of this really matter? I have learned so many things in this class about the action learning process, about using technology, about being an adult learner, about time constraints. What I'm learning is also that priorities may change but I have to keep going forward. Please understand that I am struggling just to keep up with the "necessities" in life. I've made the commitment to myself to continue to learn, to be involved in the process and to grow. Will I complete a project? Only time will tell. That is still my goal.
Soon everything will be better. My life is no different from any other adult who is trying to work, take classes and still maintain a life with my family.
Early in October, my best friend was disagnosed with breast cancer. Why? She has always been healthy. She's the 3rd generation to have the disease! Last week she had both breasts removed and hopes with some chemotherapy she will live cancer free. I pray for her health - and my own, since none of us knows what tomorrow will bring.
On Oct. 6, my parents (87 and 85) celebrated their 55th wedding anniversary. Following that milestone, my father's health has continued to decline to the point where they can no longer stay at home without help. He called me wanting to go to the hospital so he could rest and "feel better". After his plea, I began the search to find an assisted living facility for them-- selling our family home, if necessary -- so that they would be safe and still be together. I'm afraid that they will hurt themselves while we begin our search for reliable help or a safe place. I'm still doing my research on possible facilities - it's just a matter of days before he won't be able to stay at home. Why me?
On Sunday, October 22, a 51 year old friend at church who never smoked died of lung cancer. She first became aware of the cancer in April and now she is gone. She worked at our church in Children's Ministry. She loved God, her family and all the children of the church. She was the mother hen who protected all those who couldn't take care of themselves. She leaves 2 daughters, a husband and all her friends asking - WHY?
So needless to say, my priorities and concerns have been on things besides this class and my project. In the big picture, does any of this really matter? I have learned so many things in this class about the action learning process, about using technology, about being an adult learner, about time constraints. What I'm learning is also that priorities may change but I have to keep going forward. Please understand that I am struggling just to keep up with the "necessities" in life. I've made the commitment to myself to continue to learn, to be involved in the process and to grow. Will I complete a project? Only time will tell. That is still my goal.
Soon everything will be better. My life is no different from any other adult who is trying to work, take classes and still maintain a life with my family.
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